God has been doing some really cool things in our hearts recently. I debated sharing this following story on the blog, but I think it’s a beautiful testimony to God’s sovereignty as we continue to wait for our son or daughter. Adoption is a crazy journey. You’re faced with messy, broken situations. Faced with real children, who need a home. You pray, and pour your heart out to God to intervene on this child’s behalf, whether you end up being their parents, or not. The situation you’re considering could be completely life changing, or it could dissolve in a matter of days, or hours. We’ve always heard that, but now we’re experiencing it first hand.
A few weeks ago I came across a conversation on Facebook about a little two year old boy, right here in Pittsburgh, who needed an adoptive family asap. I half jokingly asked Adam if he would want to adopt this little boy, and he surprised me by saying we should absolutely consider it.
So, we started praying about it, and immediately tried to get as much information about this little boy’s situation as possible. Two days later I was on the phone with his foster mom, learning all about him. My heart shattered into millions of pieces as I learned about the deep brokenness that surrounds his story, and the circumstances that brought him into foster care at such a young age. Then we waited about four more days to hear back from his foster agency to find out if it would even be possible to adopt him through Bethany. We’re not willing to proceed with any situation apart from Bethany’s support.
Long story short, there is too much red tape, legal risk, and absolutely no guarantee that we could be his permanent family. With one phone call from our case worker, we decided to move on, and pray this precious little boy is moved into a permanent family very quickly.
We were a little bummed at first, but overall very much at peace about the situation. God’s grace was overwhelmingly abundant that afternoon as Adam and I processed through it together.
See how crazy adoption can be?!? 🙂 We spent a full week praying for this little boy and asking God to make a way for us to bring him into our family, if we were supposed to be his parents. We prayed that we would be obedient to adopt him if there was a clear “green light” to do so. We prayed for clarity, and wisdom, and God answered with a very clear “red light.” We are so thankful for that!
During that time our hearts grew deeply for this little boy. We had faithful family members, and close friends, praying for him as well. None of us will probably ever meet him (although I would love to one day!), but God ordained for all of us to pray for him, and intervene on his behalf. I think that is so beautiful.
One of the most unexpected things about this situation was how God clearly opened our hearts to adopting a child up to the age of two. We never would have considered that on our own! We have no idea who God has for us, but we are thankful that He used this week to open our hearts to a child who is a bit older than we were originally expecting. We could still be blessed with an infant. We have no idea. But we’re absolutely willing to consider a child a little older. We’re really excited about this!!!
I know that may sound crazy to some of you reading this. Why in the world would we consider a child who is at an age commonly referred to as “terrible”? There would certainly be challenges. We’re not naive to that. At the same time I can’t help but think of the gospel. That is what compelled us to choose adoption in the first place. God came down to us and met us in our “terribleness.” He chose us, clothed us in Christ’s righteousness, and adopted us into His family making us His own. I can not stand before God, the holy judge, in my sin, my “terribleness”, without a mediator. It’s only possible through faith in Jesus who is our righteousness.
This is why we continue to move forward with adoption. This is why we endure the emotional roller coaster that it is. We are not brave, we are not heroes, and we are certainly not deserving of any child! Jesus endured God’s wrath for us, so that we can spend eternity with Him. That’s the greatest news ever told, and the reason we continue on this journey by faith, and with much joy!